Heysan Photo Shoot

Heh, so... the other day Heysan had a Swedish reporter come and interview us and give us a photo shoot.  It was... weird.  That's all I'm going to say.  There is our picture below.  Notice how we are all blinded by the sun.  Haha.  Epic fail.  Btw.  I'm the asian.  Heh.

Desktop Breakdown

Redid my desktop.  

RocketDock at top -- Similar to a Dock on a Mac  (I had too many programs that I use often to put there... ;-; )

Icons from left to right:

My Computer

My Documents

Music

Control Panel

Recycle Bin

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Photoshop -- CS3.  'nuff said.  (Linked to CS4.  :O )

Google Chrome -- Good Browser.  Supposedly has spyware, and anything uploaded to it is property of Google.  However, I have run several spyware programs, and have come up clean.  DOES NOT support flash.  :'(

SRWare Iron -- Pretty much the same as Chrome, without the spyware.  I personally have several technical problems with it

Firefox -- Good browser.  However, I feel I'm constantly spammed with toolbar crap  :(

Opera -- Decent browser.  Used for testing (several phone clients use Opera for their browser choice)

(I have more browsers than that.  Use 'em for testing.  :p )

Windows Live Messenger -- My personal favorite messenger of all time (text chat only)

AIM Pro -- Cleaner version of AIM

Skype -- Decent chat messenger; Better for VoIP

World of Warcraft -- MMO; Yes, I still play.  I fail, I know.

VLC Player -- Best video player I've come across.  :)

LimeWire -- Yay, fast music searches;  Not as good for programs

utorrent -- Good torrent finder for programs

HomeSite+ -- My choice of html creation  :)

FileZilla -- To update Heysan pages~

HP Solution Center -- For the office printer.  For some reason (*COUGHTHEYALLHAVEMACSCOUGH* only I can use it) Also, can't really link you to that one.  Get it from HP.  :p  Lazy ass.

Sidebar (Windows (Vista) Sidebar)

Weather Gadget -- Tells you the weather, no duh.  (Couldn't find it, sorry!)

Pandora Gadget -- VERY cool.  You enter a song/band.  They find it.  They play similar music that you might like.  <3

Gmail Gadget -- Tells you when you have new mail  (very important for me); clickie it to go to your gmail!

So yeah.  That's what I use.  :)

Would take a lifetime to list all my apps though.  :p

So oh well.

FAIL.

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>:| That's how I feel right now.

Frustrated. Angry. Hurt. I don't even know.

For the past couple days, I've been going so fucking insane. I don't even know what to do with myself anymore.

Two of my good friends have been fighting a lot. Well, it's been over a couple months I guess. They've been fighting forever, and I'm always stuck in the fucking middle because they're both my friends. For fuck's sake, they were arguing at my birthday dinner. I was so fucking tired of it, but I'm going to be there, of course, because they're my friends, and I want to be able to help them when they need it.

Recently they just broke up, and now they're both on me about each other. They're fucking taking out their anger on me. And I'm not going to argue, because I understand that they're frustrated and all, and that they can't control it so much, but it's still killing me. Fuck, I went out and drank for the first time in over a month because I couldn't stand it anymore. It's so much fucking pressure. I won't tell them about it, of course. I'll still be their friend. But this is getting old.

Alright. So apart from them, I think I've been descending back into depression. I get so worked up about everything now. It's rather annoying. I no longer listen to my parents' rules because I don't even care what they do to me anymore. I haven't been taking Lexapro for probably two to three months now.

Alex and I have been arguing a lot. Maybe we shouldn't get the apartment together after all. Maybe we won't be able to stand each other. I'm worried. I don't know if it's him, or my depression, or maybe a mixture of both, but I'm getting really fucked up about it now. We argue almost everyday now. I hate it. I hate fighting. And it always eventually ends with him saying he fucked up. He was wrong. He's stupid, idiotic, etc. And that I'm right. And I'm starting to think that he's only saying that to end the fight. Because then I get all fucking sad that I was mean to him and blah blah. You know. :/ I just don't know anymore.